hohoho~ this is such a long time....

i'm back after watching boys over flowers.
okay i am not really the type who follows the k-waves
but i got to say...this show is better than the TW version.
simply because of the beautiful scenes and the really cool and fashionable outfits....

and another reason is of cause the boys!
hehe!~
seriously,
if they are in the real world,
(i mean the actors are real, but F4 isnt)
i will definitely prefer them over flowers...LOLS

okay so i am here 帮 my husband (A.K.A SHOW LUO) to 带绿帽...(><) cause currently, i am really crazy over KIM BUM!!!!!! he is SOH YI JUNG( 苏亦正） in boys over flower and he is really really cute! and guess what he is only 20 this july!!!! OMG~ hehe here are some pic of him =))))))



HOHOHOHO~~~

hee is just soooooooo cute!

okay he look like a baby boy and not really a man...
but i prefer his this way...
in Boys over Flower ....
he looks alittle too old...

anyway here is the man-ly side of him =))))







hohohohoho~
okay lar

also very handsome...
but must say i still like the cuter versions better hahas


okay now this are kim bum (s) in Boys over flower =)









hahas~
i am spaming kim bum!

but HEY!

let me do what i want to do in the last blog post before october okay!

hahas i am not going to come back for along time till end of exams!

seriously i need to buck up if i want to go JC =)

okay so before i go i still must honor my hubby





hahas... looks abit older than kim bum?

definitely below 25... around 23?

LOLs... it's is definitely not the best of his photo...
i just reprogrammed my computer so i lost the other photos (T_T)

hehe i must say it's not his looks that i like him for...
it's his character...

so i still do prefer my hubby...hohohoho





okay i shall stop imagining to be his wife...or i might get beaten by his fans =/






see you all after the exams =)



happy vae =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SELF =DDDD

THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE =)
its so like you to be always there=)
still hope you dont see this cause this isnt very my style...hahas


mucks
love the horride world^^

for how many times i told my self not to do it

i did it.

one went down

two went down

three four five six seven eight

then the ninth tenth.

i did not even feel i bit sleepy

some times i wonder if i am really human.

maybe the ones who shouldn't put a fullstop

just can't end it there.

maybe i still have to walk on

no matter how much i detest it.

life.

this is the life that i can't seem to end.

then maybe i shld add some colours to it.

人生是很快乐的吗！
最近我是疯了怎的...
每天那种脸见人...
就算是朋友也都被我吓跑了吧！

而且成绩还给我考个超烂 =(
就为了小事
现在我没事了！
我又找到了快乐的理由啦！
从新出发吧。

都因为昨天晚上看到他！
超爱他的啦
就因为他
我又能开心起来了呢 =)))

等一下还会上来讲好长的一段话...
因为今天太多开心的事情要讲了
要弥补最近那些emo emo 的po

hohoho~

现在要去学习了。
等一下在上来吧~


p.s 我要在这里发誓，
以后那些去了就会伤心的地方不去
以后那些看了就会伤心的东西不看
以后那些见了就会伤心的X不见

以后那些该做的事情就做
以后那些不该做的事情却想做照做。
以后该对他好的人就表示
以后那些该开心的时间就大笑
以后那些伤心的时间就大哭
以后那些该道歉的事情就就道歉
（所以思瑶对不起吗~ 原谅我。okay? Muckzz)
总而言之，
该怎么样的就怎么样=）


对了，以后blog要多po一点图=）））

还有blogskin 不要再用灰色了
看了就想死 =.=
嘿嘿嘿~


i'm back
scent (loves)

这几天在家里，
一天大闹，
两天哭天
三天不说话，
一星期黑脸，
一个月难眠，
在加上今天浮肿的眼睛

算了吧。

虽然我没有一个好妈妈，
但爱我的妈妈不应该承受这些。

我花了半个小时写了一个post
用30 秒把它解决掉了。

语言又怎么能形容这一切？

一年多没说的
怎么一下子说完。

我是一个小气的人
每一次的所有
像电影老会在脑里重播。

错的，对的，有的，没的。
我都记得。

却怎么也说不出口。

相信我，
我尝试着开口，
我尝试着拥有，
又尝试着放手

最后只能尝试
忘掉那一些不该发生的曾有。

我还是没能放声大哭。

颤抖的厉害一半是因为害怕。
另一半是因为泪就快要流。

不敢抬头，
一半是泪已经流，
另一半是怕你突然的温柔。

到最后我还是没有做到
我从认识你就像做的一切。

朋友不是因为拥抱。
拥抱却是因为朋友。

的确，她们是我珍惜的朋友

跟曾经的你前面差了那么两个字

你却到今天都还不能了解这一点。

不能了解，
这一切是你和我，
不是别人做的决定。

忘了是谁写的歌词

“如果我将要离开，
那不是别人的怂恿，
却是彻夜未眠的抉择，
最后是我要放手”


我不懂
为什么明明你自己说的那么清楚
你却还要来问我

我不懂
为什么你教我的所有
自己学无法遵守。

我不懂。
我从来也不懂。
原来所有的伤痛，
都比不上今天你最后的那句话。
使我发现，
你不懂。
从来都不懂。



我最后一定要说，
请别对下一个我说

你最好的朋友不一定把你当成最好的朋友。




而且我还要警告一些人。
这从来都不管你的事。
所以别在那里自以为是。
我才没有时间跟你无聊又幼稚。
我才懒得理你。






ｓｃｅｎｔ

今天有点小失落。。。
刚刚本来还很high的。
我今天泡了一整天的图书馆，
k了一整天的书。
本来满有成就感的。

直到我打开了那封e-mail.
那是一封过期的邀请。

我去看了看他新的blog。
写了很多很有文采的东西。

突然耳机里传来了彩虹，
隐隐约约的想起了什么。

说实在的，
他的歌声不动听。

却打动了我的心。

但我告别了这份心动。
做了最不像我的选择。
我理性的一刀两断，
就在这里。

拖拖拉拉对他不公平。

可是我也曾怀疑，
是否真的进去过他的心。

如果有，是否留下了什么？

不在意，
是说好听得谎言。

忘记，
只是欺骗自己




scent

i suddenly realised something.

the earth does revolve around the sun.
that is after spining around it's own axis.

not everybody revolve around you.
not everyone is targeting at you.
not every expression in others life are for you.
not every word are meant for you.

i am not, if you think i am, going to write out anyother carefully thought explaination
nor a sincere apology
or curse and swear like i wish i could
beacause i just i can't do it with ease like others.

i am not even writing a recount.
for最后的风度 i shall keep silent
and all shall remain as it is
no explainion
and like how you want it to be.

i shall just keep the best of ourselves.

that again sound so like myself
all too noble for the goodness of anything.

then maybe i should say



i am just tired.

after so much effort,
so much tears,
so much this and that,
small things like this can stire up so much trouble,
enough to make everything fumble.

i am furious as i told her.
i am at rage.

but actually,
it's just hollow-ness
sad,
and disappointment

unwilling to make anymore changes.
i am unwilling to rebuild this.

after all,
i don't want to fall hard from the heights that i build with my own hands again.


still,
foes are foes,
friends are friends.

i still have to credit the friend.

untill now i can't believe you told me that today.
with this words,
you healed parts of the broken me.
although i should have nobly said that i wouldn't be greatful for what you did,
but in reality,
i prayed to god that you wouldn't leave me.

still don't be saddened by reality that wouldn't change.

don't shed tears for me.


for the last part of what i want to say today.

i must remind him.

CY, if you still read my blog.
please don't wait on me.

i hope you understand what i have said,
and just try to let go.

you are good
and i am unworthy.

i don't want to hurt you anymore.

just forget me but don't forgive me.


please try to understand,
that distance is the greatest barrier,
and it is between you and me.

please try to understand.
after all
i lost half of everything,
trying to get you understanding this.



moring scent
of the fresh new summer.